RESTRICTED AND OUT OF BOUNDS

Many people ask me why i never ask for help?
well really sometimes when u ask for help your met with more judgement
from so called samaritans of good favour, so up their own ass
with self righteous bullshit.
Why help only to find your so fustrated by how much lack the damsel has
Why help if a persons weaknesses only cause you to anger
Why help when you know you `ll lose a friend forever
Today someone asked me " what have you been up to and how are you?"

so i said " There is a change in my life, a new JOb and a new social circle. "

And thi person goes, " what was the trigger for this change in your social circle?"

SERIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK!!! goodness..... so fucking STUPID!! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!
New job means new friends la DUMB ASS!

I should try to forget
Having you is bigger
I should try to regret
Having you is better

When All else fails you
and i
I rest a smile on your forehead
Hurt will watch you grow
With you i will not have known
I love you

How its gonna be?

Work for a week, i find everything i always wanted to have in arms reach
yet i fumble and i know i`m not like most not that i`m any more special
My mind is always weak and i always hear these voices that tell me i`m gonna fail
I don`t know who i can trust anymore
Show me a friend some time
someone i can really trust
there is more to thise life than i initially percieved
more to this journey it is not over...
i thought to myself if i were to die today would i regret anything
i would prolly but my life has been ok... cosidering how fucked up life is for everyone anyway..
ok i`m no one to speak so generically about everyone
but seriously my faith in God in Jesus is so weak now
i cling onto only a simple prayer i say on my way to work

am i angry? yes i am
am i sad? yes i am
am i gonna give up? i don`t ahve a choicwe but to move on
and i will move on....as heavy as these baggages are i have to
I do`nt wnat anythign to do with people who only speak of themsleves
piss off please leave me alone i`m gonna get used to to going homeafter work and playing guitar
what a nerd i am watching spiderman and playing my guitar shit!
no i noe when i`m durnk isay stupid shit like ho whot i think i am... but really i noe am not
i`m insecure i`m jaded i`m wasted
I`M SO FUCKING SICK!! OF GIRLS FUCKING TELLING ME SHIT AND ISSUES THEY HAVE WITH THEIR BF!!! PLS STOP IT!! ITS ALWAYS THE SAME OL SHIT!!
i seriosuly dun have time for that seriously fuck it... can`t deal with your bf fuck it dun come whinning to me...CB


i am drinking and i am smoking..... oh well like anyone actually read s this! which is prolly good cuz in the end you only have yourself

Nothing sets me apart

Hollow you surround
I`d venture a little more
but i am afraid
You might pull me in with that gaze
Luring me, my desire pasted with greed
Could my plea be anymore pretencious
Nothing sets me apart
The same as my enemies
The same as the things i hate
i have become them

The common advocation for the correct
Beckons me, Tempts me
And i reply with utmost bitterness
The will be no remorse or a need to explain
my actions
I`ll be drenched in your tears
For is`nt love what you feared

Jerome