" YA RIGHT! GOD DOES`NT PLAY FAVOURITE?! HA!

Clare! i know you read this..:) i really really appreciate you... your sweet and really patient with me... your a beautiful soul... :) would you kill me? if i told you i feel like i want to drop that $ 20 000 project? i`ll explain in person....But really you are cool... thank you for always being interested in what i do and who i am.... Hard these days to have people who actually not just talk about how they feel about you but people who actually know how to actually to just do a simple "how r u?" ...... since your prolly the only one thats continuing reading my blogspot.. haha
its like i`ll talk to uindirectly here ok? hahaha i really do think your really talented... and in a way i wish i could be as good as you at what you do....... yea thats some honesty for you... i`ll read the book... i promise....k...

Yea tough week, i`m tired, fustrated, hungry most of the time, restless, lonely.. damn fucking lonely man... shit man i really give up.. no one ever calls... sometimes i wanna throw my phone away. Other than for work purposes... hahah wow like bloody robot i am..... Anyways i gotta get up early for work on a sunday! ya thats my life... so ya i dun go to church so burn me at a stick will ya? fucking self righteous bastards.. ok i get it. i`m going to hell! wow u can celebrate now.. hooray! Apart from this rant, next time someone makes an appointment with me, if i call you and don`t fucking pick up 30 mins before i meet u i`m going home. don`t waste my time...SICK OF BE TAKEN FOR A RIDE.. Anyways i best get to bed....
looking forward to 5pm tommorrow when i can finally come home and sleep.... fucking hell...